howdy, and i suck

well. a month off from blogging? what's wrong with me?
thanks to my friend mara for hinting that she missed my blog (by saying, 'i like to read your blog.' very subtle. :)
i've had a lot going on so i don't really know where to start. might as well just jump in:
1. i no longer work for the fort collins now newspaper. we tried and tried to arrange something where they could feel like they were getting their money's worth, and i could work for them without feeling like i was dancing for nickels, but we just couldn't make it happen. they are good people and i feel a little bad about the way i went out, but after you approach someone who has said over and over, 'there will be more money. there will be more money. we're working on it.' and nothing changes, well, you begin to feel like you're getting your chain yanked. so i pulled the plug.
i am now enjoying a fine career of selling off my possessions on ebay and, of course, acting. :) the two go hand in hand quite nicely.
kidding. its not quite as dire as that.
the good news (and actually the news about the paper is kind of good too, actually; i feel freer and more relaxed than i have in a long time without having deadlines and interviews and crap every week) is that i have been cast in my first DENVER show! and it's
2. stanley kowalski, the marlon brando role in 'streetcar named desire.' right now i am equal parts terrified, humbled, and excited. i got to meet the rest of my cast (principals anyway; there are apparently 17 people in this show. yikes!) last night at a publicity photo shoot for the show.
we got to go out for beers afterwards and it was really fun, plus i got to sweat and rip my shirt off for the camera as well as hug on two women i don't know at all. a little awkward, but we made it work. the show is going to be put on at vintage theater in denver, and the director is craig bond, one of the founders of vintage. he is a great guy, and seems to have already put a lot of thought into the show, way before we've even started rehearsing.
look for it in august!
3. the other thing i have going on is i am writing a new play i am really excited about. it is a claustrophobic story about a couple and a new friend that gets brought into their happy(ish) home and stirs things up that had previously gone unspoken. i'm having a great time writing it and i hope to have it done -- at least a draft -- in the next few weeks.
4. anyway. going to get going on writing here, but i will be back in the days and weeks to come.
thanks for sticking with me!
--kjb